Tuesday--May 22nd

It's just like me to find something cool (like my own blog) and have fun with it a bit, then...nothing.

So here it is...May...and it's a whopping 7 degrees CELCIUS out there. Our summers get shorter and shorter. Stupid Global Warming. Things have improved somewhat since Oct/06, but I still have a hard time wondering why it's so hard, so often?? I remember being in my teens and even in my 20s thinking that by the time I reached my late 30's-early 40's that I'd have my life figured out.

I dont'.

There's still so much I don't know about myself and this journey just continues. I'm not the old Kelly and that's not to say that that's a good thing. The old Kelly was a hoot. Not to say that I'm not funny, because I am. But I just seem to be weighed down...like gravity has concentrated so much more of its efforts on my shoulders and that's what I'm carrying around with me. It's not fun. The worse thing is, I know it. And I'm a smart girl, I can do something about it. I'm also a bit of a lazy girl and I'm tired of doing the hard thing and I now want things to come easy to me.

Again, I'm a smart girl. I know that anything worth having is worth the hard work to get there.

It'll come. I'm sure it'll come...in time.

Until then, I'm still wearing my slipper, I'm freezing my ass off and even though fall and winter are my favourite seasons...I want some warmth....just for a bit!!! Pleeeze!!!!